After

Do you enjoy the pain and the agony
that a simple moment of your life can create?
It happens when you’re not paying attention,
you focus on something completely different
And it drags you down, down,
and the path stops meandering in your footsteps

And if you did have a wish, only one wish
To succumb your bones to your flesh
To your senses, would you, moment,
Would you leave a message before surrendering?

What if you could reach into your innermost
Parts of your trembling heart, and just for a second
Make it stop shaking, make it feel okay again
Because you simply cannot forget the time
When all was new, all was real,
Still you are trapped in good old brave new world

Of your own memory, what were you
Most likely to erase from your harddisk
Your ideas that keep coming back
And your passion makes you so numbingly sick

The real hazard starts as soon as you let
The teeny-tiny ray of hope into your life
You try to focus on something completely different
But the sadness drags you down, down
Hardship can be endured in so many ways
But you don’t read the signs and bang into walls

What you are really looking forward to
Is to let yourself go and finally find that
Little spark, that flame that burns and will not
Let you break down while you are dying

Dying to hear what I have got to say about
All the tantrum, the mayhem my words create
But of course the noise will drown out all your fears
And will eventually let you fall into silence you deserve

March 14 2009